This is a fun one that rose up out of a sleepless night, as dog days do in the their nights with temperature playing games, gnats finding new entrances, armadillos are Tarkus and that’s it for now, how strange to not sleep but to feel the heat coming in just by the color of the green leaves at dawn. We asked for it. We could have changed it all in 1970 then again in 2000 but the bad guys won, they sucked up the the poison and let dark angels have their way. We asked for it, we did not ask for it. I did not. So here it is, so be it. Have a cold latte and find your way into the day. Peace Love Hope Faith
I knew my homeland, I don’t — H Lamar Thomas’ Blog
Five minute work of a condensed vision of several Bruckner symphonic themes. Very compressed so hopefully I was able to transfer the sense fo being home but this just dost not feel like my Georgia anymore, I never know which dialect of thinking I enccounter until they are angry, I’m confused and feel like […]
I knew my homeland, I don’t
Five minute work of a condensed vision of several Bruckner symphonic themes. Very compressed so hopefully I was able to transfer the sense fo being home but this just dost not feel like my Georgia anymore, I never know which dialect of thinking I enccounter until they are angry, I’m confused and feel like the same thing is being said over and over, but undersanding on the level of fiendship itself is lost in the attempt to translate even the simplst forms of communication.The subject and ohject are the same, but meaning becomes interchangeable between sign and signified, when put to the test of ordinary language, lingistict, and most of all, intention. I am lost in the sanctuary that once gave me such assurance of faith and belief. It’s people. It always comes down to my forever inability to for primary forms of speech. So, I applied the same to Bruckner in shrinking it all down to one compressed two movement statement. It is poety.
Perpetual Space
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48:23:10:09 Something special here that was a dream task of sorts for a long time and now it is at a long time. There is a feel, for me, you may want to plug your ears and damn the day you heard or heart this. But why do that to yourself? Why pain, why hurt, why bring distress, why damn the innocent, why hunt for evil, why seek to marginalize people, why kill for the love of some damnation, why not seek love, why not seek what is good, why not create, why not have a nice word, a smile, why not walk away from someone who is just being an asshole, why step into an elevator with a tiger, why tease the dead, why do anything at all if it does not lean towards the creative, towards helping others ,towards an expression of God given creative force, why destroy, why nihilism, why force a people to such extremes that the world itself is being bombed, and come on hateful have all the answers people, I can smell the pitch and sulpher already.
This is from deep in the recesses of dream and is not atonal, not a song, not a vision, not anything except for what it is, Perpetual space. Truly, I hope that whoever may listen to this will find the edame cloudlite in a storm reaching for God. Some people think they have the answers, I did at 16, but we never do, really. Answers are evasive, some are black and white, some have live, some swim deep in the underwater mountains of the Pacific. I think this is quite black and white. It is Perpetual space, except with music. And there is a bit of silence around 20 minute mark but it awakens with a mountain drum. Not exactly Cage silence or the 60s trailblazers, You have to be quiet going by Jupiter, that planet has a temper. HA!
Raphael and Padre Pio in cliassical motif. Others are much better than I in al istances Ijust poe=
As light and as spiritually heavy as these two wonderful Saints can be felt from my own humble perspective and contemplative existence. If one must hate me for being a Ctholic these past 6 years then please do so, I will start over and speak even less that I did my first year hear among the Saturday night prayers and whispers. I am saddened by the negativity under the rugs, yet hold strong in my love for God, the angels and saints for keeping me alive long enough to repent and hopefully bring in a new catholic or two. For any who may hold a grudge, hate or negativity towards me for having been blessed by miracles . I call Padre Pio and Raphael. The beautiful and beloved Rahael, the humour among the steadfastsdsssssssssssssssssssssssddakkkkaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaadddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddsssssssssssssss
Zone Fever Dream Dreams Fever
This is something that ended up being pretty cool in spite of the need some people have of misreading and puling a quote out of context and arguing the same arguments human kind has had since their mouths formed intelligible sounds on war and peace use of guns and all. Melt those farming tools to make swords and all or was it the other way around? And so it has gone since our mouths and tongue formed words into language and said “War Bad, Kill Bad People who make War” and so we have since we first raised a fist in anger. All the cool destroyers and aircraft carriers in the world, and they are cool looking; like space age cool, look them up on youtube, it will amaze. But say the word gun today and people freak out, understandably; but there are also those of us who like to hunt for our food, and fish for the flavor of the pond, river and sea. Me, I like the dirt. I like what grows out of the dirt as I gave up meat six months ago for Lent and it stuck. I guess Jesus Christ and Buddha really do want me to follow the true and very rough road of going vegetarian. No reason beyond Lent when I felt the greatest death into Life has already occurred. Let the animals live. But it you like different meats then for it, for CLEAN meat not factory mess. So my stance confuses people, as it always has no matter how hard I try. I woman once sia d to me back 35 years just a few before I quit drinking, “you know, Lamar. I really like you and can understand you so much better when you have been drinking. You are not so “out there.”. And I’ve heard it at least once a week my entire life. Early in my life I tried dumbing down with hard, I mean the hardest drugs to destroy parts of my brain I did not want to have anymore. I should have just blew them off and walked on, but teenagers need friends and Chefs need to match foods to wines and at the time it was to matc my cool food to the cool food of California! It was wonderful. Alice Waters changed us all for the good. I eventually developed my own cuisine after my apprenticeship and I owe a great debt to Mendocino, the place I long to return. Turn the guns to plows and the mind to the earth, those were interesting years, I grew, then I quit drinking and I grew even more. Whatever. I’m just babbling after spending nearly 12 hours on an 11:59 minute concerto using Classic piano and Chinese classical instruments. it all relates. I believe. Some just have a blast insulting me as best they can and others toss in the Gideians for a nice swipe at my faith. Let me tell ya, if a person is intentionally trying to wear down or test or find fault in your faith are not fair friends. I’d rather return to silent prayer and loneliness. All this boring stuff said, they tried to defeat me in my felief that we have enough guns, people who want to hunt for food should, and rhetoricians are fine among themselves but not with me. My family thinks me a freak and then says oh no not that way. As the great American Transcendental philosophers William James, Ralph Waldo Emerson and most importantly the one who created pragmatism, Peirce. He started so many schools of thought and study that he was pushed aside. Poor guy ended up in his barn with a gun threatening to kill any who came near. His was a tortured life. Created so much before it became that vanguard that it drove him mad. There is a tiny section in Zone Fever Dream Dreams Fever that is a tribute to Charles Sanders Peirse. I really hope you enjoy this music. I was able to work on it and complete it in spite of a need to argue a point. I don’t know why, the argument has existed since before the Bible was a dream. Please do not hate. Seek peace. Turn from Evil. And really really do to others as you would to yourself. speak of others as you think they would speak of you, more good than bad that’s for sure. Life goes on, huh? So insult, indulge, do judge, do smear, do bait and hate. People do represent their religion no matter how many times the opposite is said in defense. I have been and I have observed, and I am not happy. The Arts will live, and even if I am a forgotten grave off of First Avenue then so be it. I have condemned my actions much more than any common nazi can. On top of this condemnation and disdain I still believe, I still have faith, love and hope. Even if I have “only been a Catholic for a day”.
Zone Sunrise
Zone Peace is a Covenant
ZONE PEACE IS A COVENANT
Based on my overall complete and compelled by, beauty and love that Miyazaki lets float across the screen. His world is populated with winter/spring piano music. I’m just mockingbird in the nihgt, singing to any who will hear my call. Love. It is Love. We must love the heart of the evil and vile among us, we must pray they seek the phantaste of a door leading to warring worlds and peaceful countrysides, and of course, riding a friendly wolf dragon makes it even more a cares of the senses, please place your anger in the right places. Love will emerge. God Loves You More. Hand your fears and worries over to God, take time to ride your wolf dragon across star shining skies, and just for a moment there is Peace, peace before the shouts and clamor, the curses and angry awakenings, leave them all behind..new worlds emerge, new hearts sing, for that heart, for purity which would allow again shake aware the hatreds. Please if you must hate, then hate the right thing, if you must war the war against the right will and ideology. Feel like a Miyazaki film score. I just want a touch of innocence again. Don’t we all, beyond rhetoric, beyond ithe here or there, that even this is the tax of war, we all just want to get away. And others, so if you can, seek peace, when others offer say yes, we are al in one need or another. Just as soon as I find that Tardis key……Hope Faith and Love to all, even the ones who wish to hate.
Please share, and if you dislike, that’s OK, we all have our likes and dislikes. I just feel the need to play and play and write till I drop, the day comes in and out, but I can feel what we have done, I can feel on my skin the idiot logic that ruled our Legislators for the past 26 years. Glad Artists have a place. What good are the 124 day work year people, they have no idea, no love, no vision of what the world is and what it will become in their hands. Rise up. Rise up one and all.
Zones Mahler in his Lake House Weeping and Zone Despair, Mahler Wept As Manhattan Stood Cold, Vulgar
Against the Orange Beast
the writing may be a bit out of order, fixing it after SoundCloud did their reversal thing did not really fix it all, my fault but it’s been a long day, me say “ugh!”
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First, I quit smoking not a drag since 12 years ago, i just like the photo cause it reminds me of photos of French resistence and that sort of thing. See, there was the largest mass murder last night in American history. I blame it in part on the Orange Beast and his form of fascist, stalinist, little queenie hitler style hatred for all that is not “normal”. I hate normalcy. But I was born and did pursue al life as a servant a long time ago in food, poery, music, literature, hence I am a sesrvant. I am OK with that. Since I read and remember history, and what I read I was reminded of how the littel weanie leaders like the tiny hands of the Orange Beast or Kim Jong Un Batshit Crazy always go after Art. They demand what Art is acceptable and what is not. I like the stuff little queenie hitler and proably tiny hands Orange Beast dislike. So, here is the serious part, in honor of those murdered and in warning to what hate speech does, the impact it has on the insane.part four…..So, this two piano and strings concerto is atonal, tonal and drone filed down to about 8 to 10 minutes. It has its own particular merit as a dadaist work, but it is also to remind us that the Orange Beast, drunken Alaska lady, stalin, hitler and mussolini each had an impact on the insane and innocent, good people were slaughtered. When you lose respect for life and worship the works of Mammon as property then we are in trouble. Stand up and fight. Whether you compose music, write essays, talk shows, regular discussions, anything. Stand up to hate. Look hate in the eye and tell them you LOVE them and wish them the best of mental health they can afford. I know that I would have been axed right away in the Weirmach whatever as a decadent artist.
Posted 12 minutes ago12 minutes You say at 0:14:
….I composed, played and arranged this piece in honor to the avant gade, surrealist, dadaist movement in Europe at the time when tiny hand hitler, not tiny hands Drump, but I am sure he would find this piece horrific as would his whore wife
Posted 14 minutes ago14 minutes You say at 0:14:
… Especially bi polar schizophrenia types who can change faces and minds in an instant and it is the most frightening thing I have ever experienced. I was less that 10 yards from a black bear in Rocky Crag National Forest Idaho wilderness, just me and a black bear. It stood up. I stood still holding the same smile and fly rod as when he saw me. I did not move. So I’ve been scared before.
Posted 16 minutes ago16 minutes You say at 0:14:part five…so get out your intelligence. Be intelligent. Inspire justice. Let the insane know that they are seeking to destroy not create. FORCE the legisalature to work more than 124 days a year, and that they cannot five themselves raises or insurance benefits without the judgement of the people. Too many are being killed because these idiots in office fail to realize that words are oraganic, words have a life, words are tools of the dark angels and the darkness is upon us all. Fight with your mind. Fight with your Art. Do not wait to be harmed. Be alarmed and take tai chi or some form of martial arts. do not be a target. When people lose respect for life and worship buildings and walls over compassion and humanity then you know you have the very very wrong people running for office. Be the fly on the ass of Ionia. Run them out of America. We have no place for the Orange Beast. We have no place for fascists and stalinists. Be free. Act Free. Live Free.
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